Update

Ok its been a while who knows if folks still come by but I’ve been slacking a lot more than ususal.

Writing is theraputic for me and I haven’t been doing any lately which can tell ya that I’ve been feeling some sort a way about life lately.

School starts in two months and I actually want it to start..I’m taking for class..one is online so that should be interesting. When you gotta pay for it yourself you aint necessarily in a rush and when you dont do well in a class you wanna make sure you have the time to focus so you can do your best..which is where I’m at. I didn’t do well in one class the previous semester so I’m taking it over and Im so mad at myself cause I wasted money…granted he could have gave me some extra to do but I guess he didn’t feel like he should have…boo to him…and the sucky part is this same teacher is teaching another class im taking this semester hopefully he doesn’t remember me LOL

Good thing is my classes are only tues and wed so if i decide to go out of town I’ll still be fine to do that, shouldn’t interrupt any of my vacation plans if I make any and as of right now I dont have any LOL

G is fine…I made a BIG mistake and almost damaged our relationship totally and I’m so happy that we both worked through it…and no i didn’t cheat lol

Work is good….well relatively good….

All this freaking rain is killin me though

I suck…

yes I know. I haven’t been by blogs I’m such a slacker and everytime I mean to stop by I either remember I have something i need to watch or some actual work to do LOL

I try to update each week but then I get sidetracked…great

Anywho things are going well. Looking forward to registering for class then found out I need to pay a parking ticket that I got on campus…great so I have to do that before I can take my summer class. It sucks cause they are only offering one class that I wanna take during the summer which means that I’m gonna have to buckle down in the fall and take like 4 classes….errrrr

About this heatwave that came out of nowhere I thought it was suppose to be spring not the middle of hell season lol. One day it was all nice and breezy the next its so hot I had to change three times (hey I tend to sweat and I dont like being funky lol) and then the rain comes…what kind of nonsense is that. This the kind of weather that gets ya sick.

G is fine. We’re progressing along nicely. I tell ya that man has taught me alot about patience in the last almost 5 months. It insane cause even my mom saw it she was like calm down dont be so quick to jump and fuss…she’s right the devil knows my weakness and he steps on it lol…but all in all G is a good guy. I’ve stopped giving him the side eye all the time, although I do keep my eyes open..I dont think thats the same as the side eye lol

My mom loves him, my sisters are already callin him their brother and of course my booskies love playing with him…he always puts the baby booski to sleep when he visits and fat fat who is losing all his fat lol loves chasing G around the house.

Lets hope I can keep updating once a week LOL

Catchup

Texas was great…..other than the light drizzle that I was NOT prepared for the visit went rather well. We hung out Fri night and had a blast and then got up Sat went to Wally World (his fav place) cause I was NOT prepared for some other things that decided to arrive that weekend lol

Then it was off to Old Navy to get a hoody since I wasn’t prepared to walk around the park freezing…good thing I had some jeans packed or I would have been really SOL. Before the park it was the mall though and I love how they had this huge pair of boots sitting in front of the mall too cool lol

Six Flags was cool, until I noticed that my camera was not working. Well it was taking pics but the LCD was jacked up so I had to call today to find out what I need to do to send it to Sony to get it fixed. So anywho I was snappin pics and hopping they came out and they did…if you are my friend on facebook you can view them there

He comes home on Fri I have to head to Norfolk to pick him up, then we’re going to a bday party then to the beach for the rest of the weekend pending nice weather. I can honestly say that this whole experience has been a REAL learning one. After coming off with what happened with Music I have to learn to trust G totally and that is HARD. I can’t assume he’s doing wrong all the time, I have to know and feel that he’s different but I promise sometimes he does stuff and I’m like hmmmm then I have to check myself cause if not I’ll turn into my FBI mode lol and that is not cool so he’s teaching me to trust him even farther than I can see him lol

He makes me smile and laugh and I love that about him. I dont have to worry that he cares for me, he will tell me over and over again. Loves to hold my hand, includes me in his future plans and even fusses at me for speaking in I form lol meaning I will say well in 2 years I want to blah blah and he’ll be like you mean we lol and I’m like what lol. It’s nice to have someone who puts more effort into me than I do him. My daddy always said find a man that loves you a lil more than you love him….men take longer to admit they love you and when they do you know its real.

This weekend hopefully it will be nice. He has to look for an apt in Va Beach since his old lease is up with his roomie so I’m gonna help him do that and between all that we’re going to hang out with my fam and hang out at the beach, which should be nice

Since I didn’t get to hang out at the beach last weekend maybe this weekend will be diff. Sidenote I saw some cute bathing suits at walmart I need to go back and check out. I was going to get one I saw at GAP until I saw that top and bottom were $36 a piece…UMMMM NO lol I’ve gotten like 5 bathing suits for that price at Tar’get on the clearance rack thanks lol

Friday Thoughts

Glad that I get off early

Wondering how come I can’t write a real post only randomness

Going to see Gerald (yes that’s his name since someone hint hint lol said I use initials too much lol) in Texas for the weekend

You guys are right thinking im going to mess this up will mess it up

He’s a wonderful person and I need to just live…which I think I can do but then I start thinking lol

I have a friend who I think makes up lies to get attention…..strange but true I’m starting to look at her diff.

Sad cause I feel bad for her but I dont have time for you to be making up lies about your life and telling 5 diff stories…that aint a friendship

Looking forward to spending some time in another city with him and then next week we’re spending the weekend at the beach if the weather is nice and hitting up church with my fam

Ahhh the joys of getting off early and buyin a new book lol

Hmmm

You ever think someone is still hiding some information for you but you dont wanna press the issue….yea I’m trying to be detective too much but its in my blood I promise it is

Very busy at work…I’m actually looking forward to the summer

G and I are fine….I finally admitted yesterday to Reesie lol that we are together…feels strange. Not in a bad way but just weird ya know I always thought me and R would be

He’s not ready and he kept stringing me along..had to let him go. I love him dearly he’s still my friend but I needed to move out

Maybe in another atmosphere we would be right but not now

I pray that I dont treat G bad due to past experiences but I generally give him the side eye and he wonders why….boo I got to keep all my eyes open

Dont lie to me and expect me not to find out..cause I will lol

I hate thinking that I could ruin a good thing…ah well

Slacker…..

radio that is At work just finished eating a bagel…after I already downed a french toast bagel this morning. What can I say the auntie flo got me eating like Im eating for two however I dont over do it too much cause I do know that she goes away and I dont want the pds that she brought to stay with her LOL

Today is my friday…which means I’m outtta here snitches come 530 or 6 depending on the workload. Gonna head out for drinks or something later with Wayne who you know as G but I’ve started to call him Wayne since his dads name is G as well its just easier to call him Wayne all the time instead of remembering to call him that when we’re around the fam…who I LOVE. He has 3 brothers. 2 are younger and the one is older so he falls in the same place child wise as I do. But anywho I was over the fams house yesterday and his lil brother who is 12 loves my storm lol he’s always on it like D can I see your phone…i want one but I’m too young..you’re darn skippy homie. The other night me and Wayne were helpin him with his HW boy do I remember those days…..kinda miss em but they will be back soon I start school again in the summer lol so great. Should be done by December and on to bigger and better things.

Going to the 804 tomorrow to get my lil Toot…who is such the man now lol. When he spent the weekend at my house recently he goes auntie lay in my arms….and he rubs my head LOL. I love that lil dude. So after I pick him up I’m headed to the parents house for the rest of the weekend but before I chill I gotta take Wayne to the airport. He’s going to TX for a month. He says I wont miss him…I say of course I will…and I mean it lol. He’s slowly movin in on me..not like that lol no more movin in with said man until I get a ring LOL and I make sure he aint got no hidded issues…lesson learned I tell ya. Some folks can do it…I for one learned that I need more before I do that

Other than that…nothin much else goin on. Ready for the weather to get a lil nicer so I can wear my cute orange peep toe shoes, or the navy blue and pink open toe ones….I also saw these cute brown open toe ones at Charlotte Rouse that are a must get!!!! However I told Wayne that I would clean out my shoe closet first before I buy another pair….he laughed lol and so did I on the inside cause I know that might not happen.

On top of that so begins flip flop buying at OLD NAVY!!! WHOOOHOO sad but I can go in there and spend 30 dollars on flip flops cause you know they are two for 5 LOL. And the summer dresses ohh yea I gots to have one in every color..not from there but anywhere I can get one under $20. I need a yellow and an orange one. I have purple, black, green, blue and brown I need some brighter colors.

Thinking of going lighter for the summer as far as loc color but dont know gotta talk to my hair stylist dont want them bad boys to fall out

Have a great weekend…back to my slacker radio

P.S. why did I have a dream I was about to be eatin by zombies, then we ended up buying outfits and having a dance off but I woke up before I could find out who won…WOW talk about insanity!

TMI Questions

These help me clear my head

1. Don’t tell us what it is, but do you have a sexual secret you have never told anyone? Yes and if I told ya then it wouldn’t be a secret

2. Do you have a nonsexual secret you have never told anyone? Nah someone knows it so its not a secret.

3. Did you ever tell someone a secret only to have them spill it? What were the repercussions? Nope I have wonderful friends

4. Did you ever spill a secret someone told you? What were the repercussions? Yea she didn’t know I told I just found it bizarre what she told me, I had to tell someone lol

5. Tell us a secret someone told you, however along ago, that you’ve never told. (You can disguise name or details) I’ve told so I guess I can’t tell now lol

Thursday Mumbo Jumbo

At work ready to go home

So much stuff to do this weekend, chapter meeting sat morning, luncheon on sunday and between all that make sure the luncheon goes off well since I’m a chairperson…great

My Zetaversary is Sun woohooo 1 year ago I became a ZETA!!!!

Ummm if I dont return your IM”s and you left your number and I didn’t call dont you think that should tell you something especially if you keep asking for my new number and I have yet to give it to you

I dont know if I like Heather Headleys version of Running back to you I like commission better

I need to do my hair but I still have some curls from when I did this lil bantu thingy with the locs so I might wait till Sunday night matter fact I prob will wait till Sun night lol

You see I’m moving on now you wanna tell me you want a relationship…WOW are you kiddin me lol

I soo enjoyed our day in DC…..can’t wait to do it again

Sometimes I think I read too much into things…and I dont wanna mess up what could be a good thing if I do that

I try to stop but my poor brain just runs a mile a minute

I can’t wait for it to get nicer outside…my walk this weekend was wonderful

Sad when your fam says I briought you to church and not the other way around LOL

I need a vacation………where to go first LOL

TMI Tuesday

I will admit that I love doing these…just cause life can get so dang on tiring sometimes its nice to do something that doesn’t “mean” anything.

1. Are you pro-marriage? Why or why not? Yep I believe in marriage, for some people lol. I being one of them. I can’t wait to find the one that I’m meant for and create a life together producing wonderful big headed smart babies lol

2. Have you ever invented or thought you invented a sexual position? Nah but dont challenge me cause I’m always up for the challenge lol

3. Do you like to be tied up? Always or sometimes? Hmm sometimes depends

4. Do you consider online cybering adultery? Uhhhh lol does that include texting lol

5. Do you prefer masturbation over real sex? Heck no lol i needs the real thing

6. Do you want sex more times a day than your partner? I mean if we’re both off that day then fine but I think I’m good in that dept lol

7. Do you get offended when you partner openly flirts with others or are you okay with it? I think midly looking is fine but if you’re out and out falling over this person then there is a problem.

8. Do you think you’re flirty by nature? I’ve heard that I am but I am social and on top of that my friends know that I just dont talk to anyone

1. Is there a sexual act/position/practice that you were sure in advance you would hate (or never try) and then discovered to your surprise you loved? Doggystyle…I was like umm no why would I like that then what do you know I like it I just dont like to call it doggy style it annoys me

2. Is there a sexual act/position/practice that proved a lot less interesting in practice than you thought it would be beforehand? The side I guess if I had to pick one

3. How do you let your significant other know you’re in the mood? How do you let a new person in your life know? I let the SO know by doing things he likes, rubbing his hand, the back of his neck….I would hope the new person can pick up on signals…dont wanna have to stand in front of them naked for them to get the picture HAHA

4. How does your significant other let you know he/she is in the mood? He rubs my back and kisses my hands then moves in lol

5. Is there one that got away – a sexual opportunity you didn’t realise was one at the time, or weren’t ready for and regret missing ever since? Nah

Clearing my cluttered brain…

So you pretty much know the story with R..he’s someone I met like 5 years ago when I first graduated from college. He came up to my friend after I disappeared heading back to work and asked her to pass his number on to me when she saw me again. She called me at work, told and I called him. We met up outside my building and the rest is history lol.

He’s cool that’s my homie, I love him to death but lately things have been getting on my nerves. I know you can’t rush a relationship but my thing is boo if you dont know by now if I’m the type of person that you want to be with then why are you getting mad at me for hanging out with folks…you arent my man. Yea you may act like it and we might hang out alot but you aren’t him. Sad to say that titles change things but that’s the reality of it all.

So we’ve been having convos lately about what’s going on and he’s telling me that sometimes I dont make him feel comfortable enough cause he doesnt know what I’m doing and sometimes hwat I do doesn’t look right…for example Young One and I went out to dinner on friday. Now Young one has a girl and two kids, we are NOT trying to get together….we just like hanging out and talking about life. He’s doing something with himself and I like to surround myself with folks like that. It shows cause R was saying I dont have a physical type..which is true if you’re cute in your own way then you can get my number now what will keep me talking to you is what you’re about…he doesn’t get that but oh well. So anyway he was all upset cause he was like Sunshine how does that look to you, you going out to dinner and watchin a movie with him aint that couple shit…I’m like boo if that’s the case I’ve done couple shit with lots of folks that dont mean they gettin in my pants..WOW. I said he’s my friend and that’s it….he didnt spend the night or anything like that…WOW. Talking about I’m trying to feel comfortable enough to be this way with you but you’re not concerned about how things look…I’m like why should I be concerned with how things look to you, you’re not my man.

I told him I was tired of chasing this long list of crap he wants or thinks he needs me to do in order to be with him…I am not superwoman. On top of that he keeps saying its so easy for someone to take you away from me…I’m thinkin maybe cause you aint doing your job or making me feel secure which is why I continue to date other folks. What’s the point in dating someone if they dont ever see it moving forward..I dont see the point, I’m not in high school anymore…

he makes my head hurt lol