I’m Back…maybe

Its funny how I use to use this blog as a release, then it began to feel like a chore so i stopped. Well I need a release so here goes again…we’ll see how long it lasts.

Nothing new other than I’ve moved to another city in MD I can’t seem to get away LOL. Two more classes to go and I’ll be done with the paralegal certificate. I was going to go back for the spring semester but I decided that I only want to go to campus one day a week if I can help it so I’ll wait to see what the summer session offers.

D and I have been broken up for almost a year now. It went by fast. I was hurt at first and still tend to miss him at times. We’ve recently started talking again and have agreed that if we are drawn to one another again then we’ll see how it goes.

My younger sister recently had another baby..this time a baby girl. Its getting old but I love being an auntie so I will spoil muffin a ridiculous amount. I wonder when my sister will get tired of living the life that she lives but everyone has their own journey.

Dating sucks…sometimes I laugh because I realized that I allow most of the mess that comes my way. Probably because I hate to be bored, but as of recently I’ve decided that being bored and alone is way better than being with someone and being annoyed. So I’m gonna be alone and LOVE IT Darn it LOL Go to the gym more focus on church and whoever comes…comes

At least that’s what I’m telling myself we’ll see if I can stick to it LOL (at least i’m being honest)

Happy Birthday

Today is my lil sisters bday (the middle one to be exact). She’s up here for the week so tonight we’ll prob do dinner and then go to a friends bday dinner tomorrow night and maybe hit up a spot or two afterwards.

Its funny how I’ve watched her grow and come into her own over the years and I am so proud of her. They thought she wouldnt’ be able to graduate from HS like a normal teenager because she has dislexia but this chic has a job, her own apt and went and got her drivers license when my parents told her they weren’t gonna pay for it

So here’s to you baby sis..I love you and I can’t wait to see you 10 years from now

Weight Watchers

So today I started weight watchers again…if JHud can do it then darn it so can I. However, I clearly dont have 3 hours in my schedule to work out but hey we shall see what I can do LOL.

While trying to decide what to eat for lunch I found out that ONE cookie at Subway is 6 points I mean dang. If I’m gonna use 6 points on a cookie I could use it on something better than a cookie LOL, however I also didn’t look up what else would cost me 6 points so we’ll see if I can find something better than one cookie to spend my points on lol

So far ive only used 9 points and I’m looking now at what else I can eat before lunch time…guess yogurt it is gonna be.

Anyone else tried the new WW program?

Boo to you…

blackberry..I want a new phone. I mean perhaps its just my insane need to stay up with the latest technology or just being itchy since I’ve had my BB for a lil over a year, but I feel the need to get a new phone. I mean yes my BB does what I want it to do, but I can’t help but feel I need a lil more fun in my life when it comes to my phone LOL. I miss my touch screen, I could play more games it was more entertaining but with it came some annoyances like freezing up and dialing itself until I learned how to lock it of course…ah well such is life. Maybe today Verizon will get the Iphone..then again if they do I will prob wait a lil while to get it so they can get all the problems out of it, I would hate to be like one of those folks from AT&T who got a phone then was back in the store complaining about it.

Woke up this morning thinking I was gonna see some snow…not a chance. So why did I hear all this nonsense about me knowing the emergency number at work, I mean I already know it dont get my hopes up. The office administrator sent around an email today for a winter advisory..I’m thinkin does that mean you’re gonna let us go home early LOL…prob not…so stop harassing my inbox…great

I’m thinking of coloring my locs..not really a thought more like a I’m gonna do it. A lil scared haven’t colored my locs in a while myself so we’ll see how it comes out. Good thing is my cuz knows about coloring so she will be helping me

I need some sun and warmth in my life, I dont like this cold weather. I’m at work wearing two sweaters…where they do that at? Apparently in my office building LOL And its only 10:30 which means I have a while to go before I get back in my warm apt..great

Hmm what else…oh yea I’ve lost 10pds wooohooo, trying to lose 50 so we’ll see how that goes LOL..dont ask me how much I weight cause I aint telling

New Year..New Chance to Start Over

Another year has begun and with it comes a chance to do better in all areas of life. Now although I am NOT perfect I dont really think I have to change that many things about me LOL, I mean yea I could stand to lose some pounds and yea I could go to church more but I mean those are things that dont take a whole year to change.

Life is good right about now, 2 more classes to go and I’ll be done with my paralegal certificate, my nephews are growing and changing so much that when I go home I have to harass them with my camera in order to remember them as the babies I want them to remain , mom and dad are good and the lil sisters are good. The middle sis is coming to visit me for her bday next week and I’m so looking forward to her coming. That’s one thing I can say, I’ve gotten alot closer to my sisters as we’ve gotten older and I’ve moved away and I’m thankful for that.

It was suggested that I start a blog and I was like I have one, I just stopped keeping track of it becuase it started to feel like a task and I dont like that. So here we go again…a chance to blog again lets see how well I do LOL

I can’t promise that I will catch up with my fav blogs I’ve prob missed so much by now that I wouldn’t even know you and your world anymore but what’s new with you guys?

Stormy

Today I woke up to pitchblack due to an area thunderstorm but the weather is def mirroring my mood right now.

I need to stop making excuses for folks…when they show me who they are I need to believe them

Ugh

What’s Been going on

Yea yea I know I’m horrible what can I say lots has been going on.

My sister and her hubby have not gotten a divorce however I’m still confused by the situation LOL. He’s currently locked up for apparently hitting her in the back she wont say what happened in fact the only reason we knew he was in jail was because he wrote my mom a letter telling her so and my mom didn’t tell my sister that she knew. I think something went on because my sister has never been one to hold her tongue esp if you did something wrong to her….but of course she wont tell till she’s ready till then its her business as long as my nephews are safe and they are (living with mom and dad)…she has to live her own life

In other news my old roomie and I think that her twin sister is in some weird relationship with her baby daddy…meaning maybe mental or physically abusive…she has a bruise on her arm and leg that she got from burning herself (so she says with some grease) and from falling…hmm yea right those right there are some lifetime excuses….he doesnt let her hang with her fam alot and her friends is a whole nother story. matter fact this fool even gave him number to some woman at a bike party they were at..now tell me that aint rude and when it was brought to the sisters attention (by a coworker- whose sister the number was given to) she says he wouldn’t do that LOL…now what does this said co-worker have to lose or gain by telling a lie..nothing boo believe it….now if he cheats and you know and you choose to forgive and move on but if you know he cheats and you ignore it thats on you.

My other sister who now lives in her own apt needs a wake up call. I keep telling her not to be inviting any and every fool over to her apt dudes are crazy…clearly she is boy crazy now I tell ya…

Hmm school might be on hold this semester even though I only have two classes left I’m the secretary of my sorority’s chapter this year and def need to focus on that dont want to have too much going on.

D and I are good we have our moments but all in all he makes me smile. Yesterday we chatted about who would be in our wedding party when we choose to take that step he said 7 bridesmaids were too many LOL I said no its not of course I got my way so when that time comes 7 it will be

At work so tired from the weekend wishing I were in Hpt to celebrate my nephews 2nd bday (the 3rd one) the youngest Jabari is getting big and smiles all the time…gotta love happy babies

Let me do some work so I can stay awake

Are you crazy…

I’m at work and I just finished crying. My lil sis got married to some random dude who knew nothing about her insane mind and I can’t understand how and why she did it. As much as you want to be loved and taken care of marriage is NOT the answer.

This fool didn’t think anything of my sister calling him 40 times in one night so clearly he is riding the short yellow bus as well. To the point where my mom was telling him about my sister and all he could do was shake his head saying that he had messed up…ya think. Then this chic proceeds to tell him that she is willing to sign my nephews away to my parents and go off and be with him. That being said what if they have a kid together what makes him think she’s gonna take care of that one.

This girl can’t even keep her room clean how is she gonna keep a house clean. How is she gonna take care of the both of them. He lives with his uncle and make less than $200 a month…WOW is all I can say. She wanted to get married to ANYONE so bad that she found the first fool that she could wear down. I feel so bad for my parents…they are tired and getting older and dont need any of this. I just dont see how she can think that marriage is a game…it’s sooo NOT.

She hasn’t called me yet and she prob wont until I go home. This chic didn’t even get a wedding ring, not even a piece of string she just went and did it. Without telling anyone cause she knew that she was wrong..the poor boy didnt even know what an annulment was….and then to get married in what she got married in (a scarf on your head and a peaseant skirt) is horrible at least put something on that makes it look like you’re not homeless.

I just pray that he goes and gets an annulment and she learns that being with a man should add to you not make you.

He’s Bacccckkk

Have you ever parted ways with someone and then they come back around and you wonder why?

Well navy dude is back…that’s what I use to call him on my old blog. I met him while I was in college and feel in deep like with his ponytail and his lips lol it blossomed into something deeper and he stuck to my heart for two years..he went on to join the military and something changed.

We were together one minute not together the next but I still remained his friend. I emailed him, checked on him and even sent a care package or two. At one point and time we were together and talked about making this permanent when he came back from his latest tour until it all came crashing down and I found out that he was keeping company with a long lost friend of mine from elementary school. Although they only slept together once I couldnt deal with it and I let him go. It took me a while…along while my heart was crushed but I kept believing that love would find me and that I couldnt punish others for one person’s deeds.

Well fast forward to last year…I saw him while I was at work walking in the city during lunch. He’s gained weight, cut his hair and told me that I was still “looking good”. I shrugged him off told him how things were with me he told me he had a girl and I told him i was dating someone as well and we exchanged numbers since we always had good conversation and we kept it moving.

So recently we’ve kept in touch via FB nothing bad just hey how you doing how is work. He asked if he could call and talk to me cause he needed to vent. We chatted and the convo turned to recent relationships and how and why ours ended. I told him that he had been too depressing, and I couldn’t get over the fact that i was the only person “in” the relationship. He listened and agreeded that during that time in his life he was a very depressed person and he hated that he had done that to me. Talking to him made me realize how much I missed his convo and the laughter that came so easily with him. We chatted about how life is moving along and we’re getting older…which lead to the I wonder ifs and all that jazz

I love cakes and he’s a wonderful guy but I honestly can’t help but wonder why now….why pop back up at this moment when there have been things going on with cakes and me..is this a sign. I know the grass isnt always greener on the other side it just tends to be a lil newer and I def dont wanna find out the hard way that things never change.

I just can’t help but wonder………….

Am I back…

Maybe maybe not LOL. I’ve been terrible at updating but that’s because I keep updating FB with insane things that are going on with me and I forget about my blog until yesterday when I was called out…so I figured I would update again..not sure who is gonna read it maybe it will just give me peace of mind

So school is great…two more classes left then I will have my paralegal certificate. I’m taking the summer off since they aren’t offering both the classes during the summer but they are offering them in the fall which gives me time to come home and do NOTHING which is great. That drive out to VA every Thursday might seem easy but man was it tiring. Class usually ended at 845 but it seemed like it would last forever probably because I had class from 430-710 and then from 730-845.

I’ve decided to be my chapters secretary which is great. More responsibility more involvement more growth. I’m def scared about it and excited at the same time LOL

Losing weight is going ok so far 5pds down which would mean that if I keep going along this path I will be less than 10pds away from my goal by the end of the year which is great. I’ve been a slacker for the last week due to rain and being out of town but today I hit the gym again so lets hope I dont pass out

The siblings are good. The youngest now has 4 boys…yep FOUR. The baby’s name is Jabari and I had the honor of naming him woohooo which makes him even more special. Yea I know its about time she lay off but hey you can’t tell some folks anything they have to learn their own way. The middle sibling moved into her very own apt. Roommate issues were getting the best of her so she moved on out I’m so proud of her, now she’s saving for a car. I’m contemplating moving in with my LS to save money but I had to make it clear to her how I am on certain things dont wanna move in and she be like umm no and then there will be problems. Cakes is use to coming and going (cakes is the boo) and I dont necessarily mind that but she might and if she does I’d rather stay where I’m at and just cut somethings out than move..having your own space is wonderful and moving in to save money would be great but I’ve def gotten use to somethings and thats pretty much it.

Work is good…just thankful to have a job in these times….

So I can’t promise that I will stop by and read everyone’s blogs that would take days LOL but I will def try to post more

Have a great day!!!